‘Chiu on This’ is a short and regular opinion blast
There was a point in my life when I was playing SC2 for about 8 hours a day 7 days a week. This lasted for about one and a half years. During that time, there was this particular episode where I ended up playing 30+ games in a day. What happened was that I got a bad loss in the first game where it was a clear victory for me. I got incredibly angry and frustrated with the loss and kept laddering over and over and over. I ended up losing all of the games in a row. The following days I ended up getting all of the wins back and them some, but I remember very distinctly the feeling of pure rage, annoyance and frustration with my play and stupid losses. I also remember that by the time it was all over I had a positive record as I won 50 of the next 70 or so games, but there was no elation or joy. Just numbness as if I could no longer feel anything.
All of this to say is that terrible losses burn far worse and far longer than equivalent victories. There is nothing more painful than a terrible loss in a competition and the brief moment of winning can only sate the never ending pit of despair that is losing before you have to keep winning more to feed it.